life
I’m a 19-year-old girl, i’m tall and i got my ideal weight. people say i’m pretty(not to be perasan) but its all useless. i have no real friends, i lost my bestfriend, my family yelled at me all the time. i do have boyfriend, but i don’t know whats the point of it. i don’t even know whats the meaning of love. we fight all the time, yelling and swearing to each other. i hated him, but i do love him so much. i’d rather get ignore by friends than being hate by the person i love the most. my point is i can’t even think of ONE person that can treat me as if im not an alien. how i wish that one day i got a disease where i must stay at the hospital for months and knowing who really care about me. it hurts. i cry my self to sleep all the time thinking why am i in this position. why did i do to deserve this. what did i do that makes people hate me. im not perfect, none of us are. tell me and i’ll try my best to change. im a person that once people disrespect me, i’ll disrespect them back. but once you try to be kind at me, ill be as kind as a princess. i just hope that this is all just a dream and it will all end soon. :’)
